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We are learning about sentimentality in my Victorian Literature class. Today it is ungodly hot: ninety-five degrees with humidity that covers you like a warm, wet blanket. We are studying Oliver Twist. In this section, thieves are convincing Oliver to steal. He falls to his knees exclaiming: Oh! For God’s sake let me go! Let me run away and die in the fields.

Sentimentality: the expression of extreme emotion; excessive, exaggerated. This is how my teacher describes it. She is average height, average weight. Today she’s wearing a long beige skirt with a green leaf pattern and a matching green sweater. Her silver hair is puffy and reaches the tops of her shoulders. She has a voice like a baby lamb; when she laughs I smile along, though I am not sure what’s funny. I wonder if she misses her husband—he lives on the other side of the world for half the year. I wonder, at night, if she longs for the simple things—hands that brush back strands of that silvery hair, dried lips that press softly against her powdered cheek.

My nights, especially the nights that I indulge in a glass or two of sweet, red wine I cry over the kisses I feel I’ve missed, sniffle at the feel of a stiff set of shoulders brushed up against my back. I remember hands touching skin, quiet smiles.

In class I brush through the pages of my textbook, feel the softness of the paper. I imagine what it would like to be a poor boy, alone. I wonder would it would be like to be a woman with silvery hair, hugging a pillow to her empty chest.

Sentimentality / sen – ti – men – tal – ity: excessive tenderness, nostalgia.



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Marisa Donnelly, M.Ed., is a writer/editor, credentialed teacher, proud bonus mama, and CEO of Be A Light Collective, a coaching and content creation business and digital marketplace. She is the Director of Donnelly’s Daily Apple, a flexible learning/tutoring and educational resource platform, and the lead voice for Momish Moments and Step by Step Parents, verticals dedicated to sharing and advocating for non-traditional parenting journeys. Marisa currently resides in San Diego, California, with her fiancé, kiddo, and their two rambunctious Pitbulls. ❤️

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