I Am My Father’s Daughter
I am my father’s daughter: fishing poles and baseball bats, glasses and mud-stained cleats, and a matching birthmark in the center of my right palm.
I am my father’s daughter: fishing poles and baseball bats, glasses and mud-stained cleats, and a matching birthmark in the center of my right palm.
I have always known two versions of my father: #1- Pleated pants belted just under the stomach scar from his motorcycle accident as a teenager, polo shirt tucked in, hair wet in an attempt to slick it back, glasses. #2 – Corona tank top, some form of cartoon character pants with an assortment of holes and/or paint splatters, white grass-stained Nikes, baseball cap.
There is a complex pull of emotions when a woman is faced with yard work. I realized this standing to my father’s left, a giant pile of red outdoor rock on the driveway in front of us.
It breaks me to watch my father cry. Men crying has a way of making me feel tender, making me feel just as vulnerable and afraid. But watching him, I can not associate crying with weakness. He cries because he is strong; because he is so strong that only some things can break him. Broken, yet not weak.